My love, my secret love,

Love me in the Springtime, when all is green and new,
Love me in the Summer, when the sky is oh so blue,
Love me in the Autumn, when the leaves are turning brown,
Love me in the Winter, when the snow is falling down.

Love me when I'm happy, and even when I'm sad,
Love me when I'm good, or when I'm oh so bad,
Love me when I'm pretty, or if my face is plain,
Love me when I'm feeling good, or when I'm feeling pain.

Love me always sayang, in the rain or shining sun,
Love me always sayang, after all is said and done,
Love me always sayang, until all our life is through,
Love me always sayang, for I'll be lovin' you!

i love you...always, always, always love

That is why i said you cant have married man...look at you now..miserable

A friend of mine, met me yesterday, she was crying and started to tell me why she cried. And here is my advise to her...

There are no positive reasons for dating a married man. Even the good reasons don't stand the test of time and turn out to be bad ideas in good ideas' clothing. If you find yourself on the brink of temptation, look at these 10 truths before you leap:

1. He won't commit to a future with you. A man who is in a very unhappy or unsatisfying marriage can feel swept away by how wonderful you make him feel. He may even blurt out, "I've never felt this way before and I can see spending the rest of my life with you." This may sound like a commitment to a future with you. It's not. Don't confuse his loving the way you make him feel with his loving you and making a commitment to you.

2. Cheating on his wife tells you how he deals with any situation he doesn't like. You are evidence of his avoiding dealing with unpleasant situations head on. This means that he's likely to resort to some devious behavior with you if the two of you encounter relationship problems.

3. Hiding is exhausting. Having to keep your relationship a secret can attack your self-esteem and cause you to miss out on one of the wonderful aspects of a relationship. Walking together freely and radiantly through the world can fill you with the glow of being with someone who is proud to be with you

4. He's got his cake and is eating it, too. He has a legitimate married relationship that helps his public persona and he has an illegitimate one with you to make up for what heâs missing in his marriage. As appreciative as he sounds, many women who are involved with married men come to resent his having the best of both worlds, when she has the least

5. Can you love someone who is so disrespectful of his wife? The existence of your relationship with a married man tells you how little he respects his wife by lying to her instead of being a man and telling her he wants out

6. Lose his respect and it's over. Even though he's the one who pursued you. Even though he's the one that made it difficult to say "No." And even though he tells you how wonderful you are. At some level, he's going to have trouble respecting you for settling for such a flawed relationship. Like the Groucho Marx joke, "He may not want to be of a relationship that would have him as a partner

7. You're not a home wrecker, just an accomplice. Like it or not, you are a willing participant in a man violating his vows and betraying the trust of his wife -- not to mention grossly disappointing his children and making it difficult for them to see him as a role model

8. You're kidding yourself. Despite his reassuring you how much you mean to him, his not ending his relationship with his wife in an above-board and respectful way -- and not beginning a legitimate relationship with you -- are actions that speak louder than words

9. Beware the guilt boomerang. Many men (and women) have difficulty accepting full responsibility for their deceitful actions. Human nature finds it easier to blame than to accept shame. If he is caught by his wife or conscience, don't be surprised if he tries to blame you and get you to take the fall

10. Time is too precious to waste. Ever notice how quickly the years go as you get older? Because it's convenient and comfortable, a relationship with a married man can go on for a long time -- and before you know it, eat up the precious time you might have had in a healthy relationship with a chance of flourishing.

When people who have been involved with married men finally move on, they often regret having wasted the time in a dead-end affair.

My dear...STOP AND STARE at yourself in the mirror...what do you see?

p/s: i am sick and terribly sick of MR now, and missing E badly. Talk to you soon galfren...xoxo

The sun ain't gonna shine

It’s hard to see you walk away
It hurts to see you go
But if I asked you to stay
Would it matter anyway

I’m not surprised you’re leaving
I’ve known it all along
But my life will still go on
Yes, my life will still go on

I’ll find a way to make it
Through the long and lonely night
Find a way to live without you
Without you in my life

‘cause baby, baby
The sun ain’t gonna shine if you’re not with me
I’ll live without the love you have to give me
I’ll make it through the night
I’m gonna be alright

But baby, baby
The stars ain’t gonna dance across the heavens
The moon is gonna hide away forever
I know I’ll make it through
But it won’t be the same without you, baby
Without you, baby

Maybe I’ll be better
Better on my own
I can stay out all night long
I’ll have a good time when you’re gone

Maybe it won’t be so bad
To be here all alone
I’ll have all the time to do
All the things I wanna do

So go ahead and walk away
If that’s what you wanna do
‘cause I’ve got my life to live
And I can live it without you

‘cause baby, baby
The sun ain’t gonna shine if you’re not with me
I’ll live without the love you have to give me
I’ll make it through the night
I’m gonna be alright

But baby, baby
The stars ain’t gonna dance across the heavens
The moon is gonna hide away forever
I know I’ll make it through
But it won’t be the same without you, baby
Without you, baby

I’ll find a way to make it
Through the long and lonely night
Find a way to live without you in my life
Without you in my life

‘cause baby, baby
The sun ain’t gonna shine if you’re not with me
I’ll live without the love you have to give me
I’ll make it through the night
I’m gonna be alright

But baby, baby
The stars ain’t gonna dance across the heavens
The moon is gonna hide away forever
I know I’ll make it through
But it won’t be the same without you

The sun ain’t gonna shine if you’re not with me
I’ll live without the love you have to give me
I’ll make it through the night
I’m gonna be alright...

-----------------------The Sun Ain't Gonna Shine-----------------------

I dedicated this song to my close friend -D-, You insipired me... :) i'll drink for that...

Our Deepest Fear is...

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate; our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am i to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? we are a child of GOD. We are playing small does not serve the World. We are so tiny, yet so stupid at sometimes. There is nothing enlighten about shrinking so that other people wont feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of GOD that is within us. It is not in some of us, it is in everyone. As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberated others.

Fear less, hope more,
whine less, breathe more
talk less, say more
hate less, love more
and all good things are yours!!!

note: i'm afraid of losing you...

Interesting Issue..Must Read

This is very interesting...i read one article titled "do steroid shrink your testicles?" ideally its for men out there. Well, spending my weekend reading at borders, is something normal for me, no boyfriends, (or boyfriend to be), companions, husband, scandals, office scandals to spend with and definitely my girlfriends wont hangout or spending time reading..yes i doubt it darling!! I noticed, one man staring at me, then he asked "are you enjoy reading those?" i just smiled and careless what he said. In short, you may get big in some places on steroids, but its true that other places might get smaller. Anabolic steroids or anabolic androgenic steroids are synthetic derivatives of the male hormone testosterone. Well, it seemed true enough what the article said... i mean i'm not a doctor but technically overdosed drugs might "killed" your performances or life. Or whatever! There are side effects of short and long term use of those steroids. The fact is, one use anabolic steroid reported incresed sexual drive (sexual drive? oh boy...listen, tongkat ali can be another substitute right? stupid!), aggression, acne and increased body hair..hahaha. Other attractive effects are reduced sperm count impotence, breast development amd shrinking of the testictles. Steroid use can be extremely dangerous and can lead to premature heart attacts or strokes!! (danger danger...hello smoker you might consider to stop smoking, smoking will cause you that too!). So, if your intention in taking steroids is to look like some sort of Hercylean Roda Warrior, remember - you just may end up with man-boobs and micro-balls instead!

Today is Tuesday, left my mobile at home, 52 missed calls, 10 messages, bad news, none from Mr MAS, and how i wish weekend will be forever in actual calendar, no stupid paperwork, no ridiculous meetings, traffic jammed, no arguements with my management, refused to accept my proposal NOT to keep Data Centre as one of major core business, refused to accept that i have contributed 20-30% revenue to company (not to mention, my salary still at minimal stage, not comparable to my contributions) and yet still bitching around that i didn't performance well, accusing me for being "TO LOUD & Out SPOKEN" expressing my thoughts and opinions on Business Plan 2007 and company restructuring, my own superior and other bitches in the office gossiping about me, that i'm having affair with some BIG SHOT so called DATO, stayed in BIG Luxurious Semi-D Condo around "Golden-triangle area" and questioning/wondering my financial capability (still cant accept that i can affort to own Prada, Gucci and Jimmy Choo shoes!!) and i how i wish, i dont have to face that BITCH (she will be back to office soon from somehere..bitch!),...Yes indeed, i need a vacation. Sitting by the ocean, reading Sophie Kinsella Books..heaven darling heaven...The only good news that i would like to share, is i have another 20 days to leave from that HELL Company! I'm pretty sure, most of the ineffective colleagues will be cheering happily. How that sounds to you people??? I'm glad i have my blog...Life goes on darling...

Why Dont Men Listen?

Interesting huh? Why dont men listen. I have interviewed with some men out there..the same answer " Coz we are men, we dont listen to something craps, we need facts and straightforward" Arr... For this one, i'm exhaustively searched for an answer. How sweet would it be if there existed the perfect scientific comeback for next time a woman screamed at man "why are you ignoring me!!" oh boy, sounds familiar huh? truth enough. well, here are inklings of our anatomical answer.. some reseachers from various university in US (sorry gals, most of them are men) reported that the male and female voice activate distinct regions in the male brain. The scientist monitored the brain activity of twekve men as they listened to male and female voices. They found that in the men women's voices stimulate an area of the brain used for processing complex sounds, like music. Male voices, on the other hand, activate a region of the brain used for producing imagery. This may suggest that, at least for men, the female voice is more complex and more difficult to hear and understand.

But there's more...

An earlier study somewhere in July 2001, showed that men and women listen differently. This study in US, researchers had twenty men and women listening to a passage from a novel. while listening, they underwent functional magnetic resonace imaging (fMRI) of the brain. A majority of the men showed exclusive activity on the left side of the brain, but women showed activity on both side of the brain. (i guess we're the most greatest God creations!)

Now there is certainly more research to be done, but we can put these two pieces together and start to make a leap towards excusing occasional male lapses in listening to theirs female partners.

And if you men answer this way " Honey, i try so hard to listen. its just that my brain is incapable of doing what my heart desires "(and if you go back to watching football) you should know by now, what women capable to do with your small dick!!

welcome to my blog

Welcome to my blog. Bed & Breakfast life is all about my story that i want to share. Feel free to read, comments and dont be judgemental. This is about me all about me. Honestly i am afraid to express my truth feeling to others, thus i decided to write...

Lets the word begins...shall we?